tired >.<
ytd was a Wonderfull day...
a bright bright day
finally able to get back up again :)
gonna keep the ball rolling in class
no more mr slacker lol
today i finally came early for CLASS ( clap clap ) lol
gt to choing many many things. happiness lol
choing many things = lesser hwk xD
more time for other events :)
now i've decided that my weekdays are choing days...
and my weekends are my hiong days lol
i dun feel stress all of a sudden :o
thank God for pulling me through this
for letting me know what is my number 1,2,3, etc etc :)
Always thr to be amaze o.o
ok liao time to roll around the bed le...
tmr 9a.m! choing ah lol

once again... i'm back right here
blog only when i'm moody :/
not going too well...
not running as smooth as it was before
not living a balance life
i'm soooo lost right now :/
this is already the 11 month yet i still can't get use to the course i'm in...
everyday more things get jam up into my head but sometimes it just falls out
then when i get back home... wad i see is me on the bed texting msgs or in front of the com...
homeworks are always coming yet i still went to play =.=
playing com games really drain me a lot and i think it is tat problem tat lead me into this state of me
really piss with myself.
every saturday and sunday... i see myself as a very active person.
but when the weekdays come... i feel so pathetic.
this emotional ride is giving me the recks.
Sometimes i really hate to say it but i really can't get use to the people in my school.
it's true that there are nice people out thr in the school especially those in the campus crusade :)
but i just couldnt relate to them... they just seem so far.
i dunno why did i put myself in this school n why God really throws me this challenge.
It's really a pain in the ass.
Today.. i skipped school.
Woke up in the morning 7a.m and told myself...
"john, today i'm gonna recapped on the pass 3 weeks lectures"
and guess wad... i played for lyk 5 hours...
i dunno why but i always turn to them when i'm stress out....
it isnt healthy at all for me =.= but it always seem lyk the only way out...
after tat i studied but only accomplished a little.
even in school i get distraction, rejection is really hard... friends asking to go out to play...
Relax! have fun in poly...
yeah true, but being a student in poly is to study... studying is the fun thing not playing.
which really pissed me yet again ... peer pressure are really very influencial ...
sometimes i tot that i could handle them but yet... things happen
oh God... why me =.=
why is it that when i'm back to fellowship... i always felt something...
but when i'm back to society... it feels lyk hell.
why is it that i can't relate to you when times like this happen.
I'm sick and tired of being a soloer. i just wan to be a follower... not a hamster, but a camper
buffeer buffer...