wooooo...
life was great last year
but this year will be an extra~ ordinary one!
As I started to count the number of things to thank for...
i was shock, today had this wonderful session to appreciate our sms.
It was great to come down as a body to thank them for all their efforts
but let not our effort be the glory :)
I've always been wondering and sometimes even getting frustrated over the things
I've been through and the times i have to make decisions and even to open my mouth...
Sometimes i just blame it on God... sometimes i just shut down.
Everyday seem like just another day... struggling to survive that ever demanding world...
school... social life stastifaction... trend... etc.
Life was never good when i first stepped in my nyp days...
there was much of hope for me there to pursue this course of mine...
but i guess it was already planned beforehand...
as i tried to recall when i was making that decision to choose my course...
I wanted to do this things if i were to get into nyp >>>
Get to know even MORE people...
wan to be someone different from the rest...
wanna step out of my comfort zone...
wanna get into pharm course...

It's true that the sem was a bigg struggle... even till now.
n i was thinking... was i prepared to go tat far?
at tat time i was also eager to test my faith in God by going to that school...
n i wasnt even thinking of graduating from tat school
But after the things i have experience, seen, heard during my sem 1 i n nyp...
God taught me a lot... a lot even till now.
Some parts of me stayed and some parts of me changed.
Through the sem.. God spoke to me through many ways...
n i guess i got it right this time.
He has place many brothers and sisters around me...
n to actually have them sharing their past experience which is so relavent to the me right now.
I guess it was never a coincident but God's plan.
As the days goes by in poly... i start to waver... my believe... my faith... my life
but then again... through those days... those "hardship",
i'm able to pull myself back up n really orient myself.
Grades and involvement in school had always been e root to my frustration...
but now it seems all clear...
that i have to really have faith... n that wadever i do... do my best and I will be rewarded in ways that i can't think of.
Being an nyp student was never a sacrifice... being a person who goes out of comfort zone was neither a sacrifice... It was e least i could do. and that humbled me.
Life is indeed short and fragile, but I really do hope that the little things i do... the things i say will be indeed God's will for us our future and it's still his plan.
His love for us is indeed forever and he is always thr to hear our crys and share our joy.
it's e least we could do.
night everyone God bless :)

tired >.<
ytd was a Wonderfull day...
a bright bright day
finally able to get back up again :)
gonna keep the ball rolling in class
no more mr slacker lol
today i finally came early for CLASS ( clap clap ) lol
gt to choing many many things. happiness lol
choing many things = lesser hwk xD
more time for other events :)
now i've decided that my weekdays are choing days...
and my weekends are my hiong days lol
i dun feel stress all of a sudden :o
thank God for pulling me through this
for letting me know what is my number 1,2,3, etc etc :)
Always thr to be amaze o.o
ok liao time to roll around the bed le...
tmr 9a.m! choing ah lol

once again... i'm back right here
blog only when i'm moody :/
not going too well...
not running as smooth as it was before
not living a balance life
i'm soooo lost right now :/
this is already the 11 month yet i still can't get use to the course i'm in...
everyday more things get jam up into my head but sometimes it just falls out
then when i get back home... wad i see is me on the bed texting msgs or in front of the com...
homeworks are always coming yet i still went to play =.=
playing com games really drain me a lot and i think it is tat problem tat lead me into this state of me
really piss with myself.
every saturday and sunday... i see myself as a very active person.
but when the weekdays come... i feel so pathetic.
this emotional ride is giving me the recks.
Sometimes i really hate to say it but i really can't get use to the people in my school.
it's true that there are nice people out thr in the school especially those in the campus crusade :)
but i just couldnt relate to them... they just seem so far.
i dunno why did i put myself in this school n why God really throws me this challenge.
It's really a pain in the ass.
Today.. i skipped school.
Woke up in the morning 7a.m and told myself...
"john, today i'm gonna recapped on the pass 3 weeks lectures"
and guess wad... i played for lyk 5 hours...
i dunno why but i always turn to them when i'm stress out....
it isnt healthy at all for me =.= but it always seem lyk the only way out...
after tat i studied but only accomplished a little.
even in school i get distraction, rejection is really hard... friends asking to go out to play...
Relax! have fun in poly...
yeah true, but being a student in poly is to study... studying is the fun thing not playing.
which really pissed me yet again ... peer pressure are really very influencial ...
sometimes i tot that i could handle them but yet... things happen
oh God... why me =.=
why is it that when i'm back to fellowship... i always felt something...
but when i'm back to society... it feels lyk hell.
why is it that i can't relate to you when times like this happen.
I'm sick and tired of being a soloer. i just wan to be a follower... not a hamster, but a camper
buffeer buffer...

YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
SCHOOL has finally REOPEN!
today i meet ALLL my classmates again.
E same ppl, e same school n 5 more sems to GO!
u may think i'm crazy, lol. but i took lyk 6 wks to prepare myself for today! this SEM
Gona do my best this sem, study hard play harder :)
this sem is gonna be a heavy one.
Projects are up, more chim modules....
more commitments to juggle, things are just getting interesting....
thank God tat i am able to be even in this school of mine NYP!
ever since after e holidays spending time wif God,
my perspective towards school change, e ppl around me change...
i feel so much happier without relaying on the materialistic stuff around be but actually wif...
just God only.
Thanking God is a great thing to do, being able to pray is also a great gift from god :)
can't imagine without it now...
E school was fun, went to visit e ang moh kio hub again! after lyk 1 month?
e place is still e same, still so messy lol.
enjoyed being wif my school mates, such humourous ppl :)
after e wholeeeee school, i waited for a guy...
i wan to tok abt him more here. to illustrate how curvy a person who survives in society looks n behave lyk....
i wan to thank God again that he protected me against the tide....
now still praying that my friends around me won't kana my unlucky "fate"....
i shall not mention his name...
he wanted me to invest on this facial bar...
if i invest i get to earn 3k plus liddat by just forking up $600
sounds gd right? but this is actually just a scam....
it is really scary to talk with this kind of ppl, their influence towards people is really great...
too great... i almost got sunk into it... lucky tat God is with me =.=
I feel tat this guy is quite lost... although he tells me he earns big bucks when he is lyk year 2 poly... smiling at me, talking abt girls... but i can feeel tat he is quite lost...
someone who would cling onto something n not let go...
does God really wan us to persue only wealth, women?
it really disgust me when he was trying to describe e girls in my school.
oh this is hot, tat has v low..., worst is he told me tat someone looks gd on bed....
this is sooo scary man, n plus he is v v v v vulgar...
i'm glad i did not follow him... i hope that he will know God soon, n tat he can be transform by God himself to be his "salt n light". help put this in prayer :)

God bless,
night :)