Finally semester 2 is OVER!
It's time for a break...
but seems to be a tiring one for now...
often find myself not please...
nth pleases me... sastify me...
seems that i'm just a super obsessed bull that keeps ramming into walls...
turning back to the starting line and that fact never changes...
For the past 30 mins... i've been struggling to find something to do online...
chat wif someone online? watch some shows online? maybe manga will be gd hmm... facebook?
check my profile(hope something pops up?)
but ended up, i went to hop blogs :)
This past few days, i've been trying hard to learn how to play guitar... but until day 9
that passion suddenly died... but i've learn a bit.... but i know i need to push myself...
wanted to improve my languages... but still didnt had to courage to start...
Found an interesting book from the library about how to oriented oneself....my purpose for studying...that aim... borrowed but seems to have collected dust halfway through...
BB commitments... still unsettled... still uncertain.
church fellowship.... feeling a bit far away... but i'll con't to try...
studies... been a drag... but i pray that somehow God will show me the way...
Family... mom's going for eye checkup today... i pray i pray that nth serious will happen.
Dad on mission trip in thailand... pray for his journey mercy
my little bro... pray that he can more motivated in his studies... so that he won't be lyk me...
little coco... pray that she will not find us too cold to her as we dun have enough time to
keep her company...
everyone has been quite moody for some reasons... pray that God will keep us calm and
and give us the peace we needed most...
pray that i won't be too self-orientated and start caring the one around him...
Nyp campus crusade... found a v heart warming group of christians that are unknowningly so close to me but yet... i still have a doubtful heart...
Pray that i know and learn what God wants me to do soon... I'm really drain...
but often i question myself... am i closing myself away from him? am i just not gd enough?
Sometime ago... when i heard from someone prasing me that i've grown spiritually well... i disgust as i recall... in my mind it goes... are u sure? Sometimes the thought just switches on and off.
My life has been revolving round many things... many things... so much that I dunno what am i revolving at.
I've realise that praying alone won't just do it... preparation for it is also a must do...
The same logic as pooing and eating...( think this is a bad example though..) dun eat... can't poo = not healthy... dun poo... can't eat... = v bad for health.
So likewise... prayer and preparation comes together...

when i was in the library the other day.... i gt this book( which is the one that is collecting dust at home...) said this important phrase that stuck me
" What makes this period ( young adulthood life 16 - 26 ) even more significant is the impact of early mistakes and erros in judgment. They can undermine all that is to follow. A bricklayer knows he must be very carful to get his foundation absolutely straight, any wobble in the bricks at the bottom will create an even greater tilt as the wall goes up. So it is in life."
At that point i finally re-called the non-stop nagging from my parents when i was young...
boy... work hard ... and you will be rewarded greatly...
Likewise in God's kingdom...
yeah work hard.... but work smart...
Often found myself saying yes to everything ppl ask me...
Often found myself having too much friends...( gd or bad idk)
Often found myself tired and alone at the end of the day...
Often foundd myself being less active then others... but at least they know when to rest...
Often found myself having different friends to hang out wif almost every week...
But i know... thr is one friend that never changes... God himself... but still =.= i'm still far away...
If only i can be that somebody that can do things up swiftly and accurate...
Someone that has that NERVE.... to be decisive... and not waver... not too lax... but comfortable...
someone that is dependable on....
If only i can do this stuff... i would definately be... a christ orientated person...
Maybe from this blog on... i will set targets for myself :) as a kind of contract for myself xD

Anw... i'm v comforted to see everyone else doing quite well :) especially my church batch peeps :)
no matter wad dun give up! :)
Fellowship peeps :) Thanks for having me
Crusade... Thanks for ur patience...
Family... Thanks for the support u've give me...
BB... Thanks for everything =.=
Friends... I dunno...

Night guys... sry for e messy post again..