Currently... i'm quite stable in my juggling of stuff :)
especially when i'm having holiday now!
more time to think about stuff
The previous posts that i uploaded were all small complains...
badmouthing my course...
After this many months of struggle..
i seem to withdraw from the rejection i once had for that course...
Previously i was just so certain so head on in having the course changed...
I tot that i was just a screwed up poly student
My mindset keeps changing... which i realise was my weakness
From sec 4... from choosing pharmacy... to food science... to architecture and to... food science again... and again...
This just showed me how indecisive i am...
I'm utterly ashame of myself.. really...
But... i realise something... that this is He's plan for me...
Whenever i look back at myself... i smile... but when i look at wad's in front of me i shrink away...
this shouldnt be...
haiz.. touch 2 weeks i had since the letter of rejection came into my life =.=
i wasnt really stress on being rejected... it's the decision i have to made next...
(the what's next thingy)
cuz there's 2 option for me... stay on as a food scientist OR appeal to MP
Previously... my stand was... if letter come and it rejects me to change course then i will stay on in my current studies....
but mom say that... should con't to press on to break the door in, find other solutions... the MP thingy is she suggest one also... at first i was quite ok with it, but somehow it just rejects me...
and today's the the i meet the person... i dunno if i should or not... so i still have 18 hrs to think about and pray...
After this few months of falling and climbing...falling and climbing back... it isnt a waste... in my view... cuz i've gain something more valuable... once i know my goal... i'll cling on it for life! hope my vision comes real soon :D wait and pray and i'll make preparation too in the mean time.
Currently this is my core prob... hope once this settle i will be a freeeeeeeeee man :)
to be con't~
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