Today is yet another different day :)
Went back to COGs, brings back memories...
Can't believe i'll be playing the piano for next weeks enrollment
but i guess it's time... have been avoiding being e pianist for some time
and plus~ it's only 1 song~
Pray hard that i'll be at my best tmr!
Wanna giv my best to God :D
Today... a different day a different look~
Had a lot of thinkin to do recently but still in e midst of sorting out
hope i get my breakthough real soon before the sem starts
SOOO many stuff happened but i'm glad i gt my travellers to talk to :)
The journey with God is indeed amazing...
when things doesnt go right...w8... think... from another perspective... pray...
and slowly it reveals
The process is tedious but it'll be fruitful :)
Do my best... and leave the rest to God~
Today's my first time swimming alone...it's scary, weird...
but it was a gd swim as i find peace in him
My emotion is somewhat stable now... much much stable :D
Still wanna con't typing but... i've gtg :( night~
thanks for reading! God bless

yo! finally back to normal again ^^
gt refreshed~

Maybe I should have just waited....
lyk how i waited for an answer from God....
Having a big traffic JAM in my head =.=
Many things are meant to be kept simple,
yet somehow people just twist and turn...
and it becomes a world hardest knot...
想问候但怕尴尬。。。你说。。。正么办？
but people always say.... if there's no hidden motive in your action... why not?
but again.... We're human =.= The only thing i can say is... pray
Something that i've learn and i hope everyone else would put it at practice too :)
God knows everything.... and if u're willing to trust him... he will provide
A pen can never stand tall in an rocky ride...
but with another force around to support it well
And that is how amazing God is
Lol feel more calm le.. now that i've typed it out :D

相信明天会跟好 :)

hello everybodie~
Looks lyk i broke my own promise xD
not gonna blog abt the book...
gt it returned to the library and couldnt get it back :(
Feels great to type again
This week is sports week!(for me)
Sunday> Bball, running...
Monday> Swimming
Tues> Batminton,pool,wii~
Wed> Swim again...
Thursday> Batminton again...
Friday> Hiking~
Saturday... i dunno...
Sunday> Running!
Wonder if i'll finally gain my balance weight after so many activities...
but they sure are tiring :/
Feels great to be in poly~
But all gd things will go down with something bad :(
Last week was quite "emotional"...
wasnt having the right mood for camp and chalet
but all bad things come wif gd things
met new freshies and got an nyp junior in BBpc at last T.T
was so lonely then...but! all bad thing comes wif something good~~
learned to tone down...
learned to listen....
learned to care but without asking for interest :D
Somethings been alone can be a gd thing too but wif MODERATION....
too lonely and u're become a emo kia = not healthy
too people orientated = lose focus = not healthy :/
but seems lyk i'm both the extreme at times... hop around D:
Recently... I've almost fell i luvvv...
finally gt a little taste of that "feel"...
but I thank God for that book =.=
it has taught me to keep my feeeel aside and wait...
feelings are neither right or wrong BUT the decision after is the problem.
so boys and gals~ whenever u think u've found ur target...
Aim... but dun fire immediately cuz u'll never know wad u're up to until u....
zoom zoom here and thr.... until u're certain... and dun shoot when u're not ready too...
gt a lot of report writing to do wor...
Just using some illustration thr~
Anw... for me... i think i'm just not ready yet :)
Wad's mine is mine so why bother finding xD
Sick of finding and chasing and fake perception...
so.... dun try too hard pls~ wad's ur's ur's
too hard only scare ppl away~ too slack and there goes again~
but rather be slack than hard cuz u're never know.
I love my life~ feel so recharge and focus
BUT! still need to work on the moderation part :)
tata gonna chiil on e bed liao night!

gimme another 3 days :) will be back here again...
will be sharing on a book title "Life on the edge"
Some thoughts on this book...
This book aim to reach out to youths lyk me...
who are still slowly shaping into something...
but seems that the society has stained most of us...
and the wrong seems right... and the right seems wrong...
this book teaches and shares about different challenges a youth can expect
in the coming years...
If u're interested... come and pop by this sun :)
will be just covering chap by chap (just some insights i have)

Anw... just gt back from camp and chalet
Gt to clear up my many thoughts in this few days...
so now i'm fresh again! :D
Lvling up slowly....
And soon... i'll have a room of my own
time to be artistic xD

Finally semester 2 is OVER!
It's time for a break...
but seems to be a tiring one for now...
often find myself not please...
nth pleases me... sastify me...
seems that i'm just a super obsessed bull that keeps ramming into walls...
turning back to the starting line and that fact never changes...
For the past 30 mins... i've been struggling to find something to do online...
chat wif someone online? watch some shows online? maybe manga will be gd hmm... facebook?
check my profile(hope something pops up?)
but ended up, i went to hop blogs :)
This past few days, i've been trying hard to learn how to play guitar... but until day 9
that passion suddenly died... but i've learn a bit.... but i know i need to push myself...
wanted to improve my languages... but still didnt had to courage to start...
Found an interesting book from the library about how to oriented oneself....my purpose for studying...that aim... borrowed but seems to have collected dust halfway through...
BB commitments... still unsettled... still uncertain.
church fellowship.... feeling a bit far away... but i'll con't to try...
studies... been a drag... but i pray that somehow God will show me the way...
Family... mom's going for eye checkup today... i pray i pray that nth serious will happen.
Dad on mission trip in thailand... pray for his journey mercy
my little bro... pray that he can more motivated in his studies... so that he won't be lyk me...
little coco... pray that she will not find us too cold to her as we dun have enough time to
keep her company...
everyone has been quite moody for some reasons... pray that God will keep us calm and
and give us the peace we needed most...
pray that i won't be too self-orientated and start caring the one around him...
Nyp campus crusade... found a v heart warming group of christians that are unknowningly so close to me but yet... i still have a doubtful heart...
Pray that i know and learn what God wants me to do soon... I'm really drain...
but often i question myself... am i closing myself away from him? am i just not gd enough?
Sometime ago... when i heard from someone prasing me that i've grown spiritually well... i disgust as i recall... in my mind it goes... are u sure? Sometimes the thought just switches on and off.
My life has been revolving round many things... many things... so much that I dunno what am i revolving at.
I've realise that praying alone won't just do it... preparation for it is also a must do...
The same logic as pooing and eating...( think this is a bad example though..) dun eat... can't poo = not healthy... dun poo... can't eat... = v bad for health.
So likewise... prayer and preparation comes together...

when i was in the library the other day.... i gt this book( which is the one that is collecting dust at home...) said this important phrase that stuck me
" What makes this period ( young adulthood life 16 - 26 ) even more significant is the impact of early mistakes and erros in judgment. They can undermine all that is to follow. A bricklayer knows he must be very carful to get his foundation absolutely straight, any wobble in the bricks at the bottom will create an even greater tilt as the wall goes up. So it is in life."
At that point i finally re-called the non-stop nagging from my parents when i was young...
boy... work hard ... and you will be rewarded greatly...
Likewise in God's kingdom...
yeah work hard.... but work smart...
Often found myself saying yes to everything ppl ask me...
Often found myself having too much friends...( gd or bad idk)
Often found myself tired and alone at the end of the day...
Often foundd myself being less active then others... but at least they know when to rest...
Often found myself having different friends to hang out wif almost every week...
But i know... thr is one friend that never changes... God himself... but still =.= i'm still far away...
If only i can be that somebody that can do things up swiftly and accurate...
Someone that has that NERVE.... to be decisive... and not waver... not too lax... but comfortable...
someone that is dependable on....
If only i can do this stuff... i would definately be... a christ orientated person...
Maybe from this blog on... i will set targets for myself :) as a kind of contract for myself xD

Anw... i'm v comforted to see everyone else doing quite well :) especially my church batch peeps :)
no matter wad dun give up! :)
Fellowship peeps :) Thanks for having me
Crusade... Thanks for ur patience...
Family... Thanks for the support u've give me...
BB... Thanks for everything =.=
Friends... I dunno...

Night guys... sry for e messy post again..

yeos. long time since i've typed in this white box...

Currently... i'm quite stable in my juggling of stuff :)

especially when i'm having holiday now!

more time to think about stuff

The previous posts that i uploaded were all small complains...

badmouthing my course...

After this many months of struggle..

i seem to withdraw from the rejection i once had for that course...

Previously i was just so certain so head on in having the course changed...

I tot that i was just a screwed up poly student

My mindset keeps changing... which i realise was my weakness

From sec 4... from choosing pharmacy... to food science... to architecture and to... food science again... and again...

This just showed me how indecisive i am...

I'm utterly ashame of myself.. really...

But... i realise something... that this is He's plan for me...

Whenever i look back at myself... i smile... but when i look at wad's in front of me i shrink away...

this shouldnt be...

haiz.. touch 2 weeks i had since the letter of rejection came into my life =.=

i wasnt really stress on being rejected... it's the decision i have to made next...

(the what's next thingy)

cuz there's 2 option for me... stay on as a food scientist OR appeal to MP

Previously... my stand was... if letter come and it rejects me to change course then i will stay on in my current studies....

but mom say that... should con't to press on to break the door in, find other solutions... the MP thingy is she suggest one also... at first i was quite ok with it, but somehow it just rejects me...

and today's the the i meet the person... i dunno if i should or not... so i still have 18 hrs to think about and pray...

After this few months of falling and climbing...falling and climbing back... it isnt a waste... in my view... cuz i've gain something more valuable... once i know my goal... i'll cling on it for life! hope my vision comes real soon :D wait and pray and i'll make preparation too in the mean time.

Currently this is my core prob... hope once this settle i will be a freeeeeeeeee man :)

to be con't~