A v draft testimony i made in 10 mins :)thought i could share it out ~
I am from a christian family background from young. When I was still young, I recalled that I am always being force by my parents to go to church. From young, I've always been attending the church's sunday school as I was young then. The only thing that made me look forward to wasn't God, but the friends I made there. However, my friends won't many either. Sometimes, I even attempted to pretend oversleeping to "escape" from "schooling" on Sunday.
The reason for me to be a christian was at first, for my parents but lately, I realise how this belief was so real to me and now it isnt my parents belief but mine. It has always been very amazing and breathtaking to see how christ shaped me.
In Christ, we believe that there is a God, a trinity God( the son, the father, the holy spirit). And that God has sent he's only son,Jesus(which is a long long time ago), to die for us. This is so that he can redemm us from the sins we have done. I wasnt really buying the idealogy that Jesus really just gave us this entitlement just for free? As the world we are in now, we know that nothing is free. To me God was just some very distance thing that I don't know how to describe. I know that he created all things but i was doubting whether he understands us, and even listens to us. Everytime i attend sunday school, the teacher always tell us that Jesus loves you, and i was already not buying it. When i was 16, i got to learn more about HIM, and started to find answers to life. After a revival camp i went, my heart change and am faithfully serving and learning God's words everyday in christ. What changed me? Jesus's love. Through the camp, I dwelled in God's words and I got to experience him face to face by the way how I see people's life change in him. The songs that sang, the bible verses that spoke the same thing God's love. Do you believe that he can save you from sin and make you a new man/woman? Do you believe that he loves you? I do. How about you?
My experience in christ was never smoothsailing, many ups and downs, but something that i cherish about my faith is that, as I age, my faith will only gets closer to God. He has a plan for me and I know that they are good. A verse to share "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. (Romans 6:23)"
My change through christ were the ways I handle, treat stuff at hand. How I can love others despite the many faces. How peaceful i am through him. I may be a sinner still but I'm learning to be like Jesus.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
wow my tmr seems long...
time to put my thoughts to pen(blog)
hope I can pen down as much as i can so here it goes....
hurray common test was over with some other presentations and projects!
v. thankful to be able to pull through this times with everyone =)
indeed, had many opportunities to share laughter, joy, sorrow together with many ppl out thr. life has been v pleasant and fruity...
However, as exams are always my greatest fear... I didnt prepared well and enough to be able to pull through my common test which consituets 30%? (I THINK) faint X.X totally flung my papers and it's another storm for me...
sry for some that i lied that i clear my modules...didnt had e courage to tell this news of mine :/ cuz everyone of u have been great~ aiming for A's etc...
Studies has really been a enjoyable but yet stressful experience with many downs and up ups. E past years, I've never gotten to really understand fully what i'm studying and i wasn't discipline enough to fight my laziness. This year, I've come to e point where i can't tahan my study condition. So i tried to fight it... but often I always end up to square one, and even more F's appear in my results -.= which is really just so depressing...
I've always want to study everyday from monday to friday. To read up lecture before, listen attentively, recap after e lecture (on that day itself). Do up tutorials before the class, be ready for practical classes (btw i'm from food science in nyp)
Nv have i really come close to meet all this expectations of mine... and after typing all this i realise how my other commitments in hand really AFFECT greatly my educations... No matter how hard i trust God to lead me through this times... often i find myself being more hectic. Especially, when i have commitments at hand.
Though all this... I'm thankful... and i really hope that this blog... will become my "accountability blog" to remind me what i need to do everyday. I will really appreciate if someone can remind me to blog just lyk how zw >>> commented :)
thanks bro! Sometimes, simple words is enough :)
Philipian 4:6-8
Do not be anxious about everything but everything, by prayer & petition with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts & minds in Jesus Christ.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things
wow, whenever i read this verses(now right smack in front of my study table). It always spoke to me... that no matter what, I must cling strongly beside God. And always when I do, I feel close, I experience he's peace a long one. And how I should always be positive for he will provide the needs of my lost soul.
life in NYP is indeed a wow wow, I'm glad to be in Nyp. It may not be a top poly but I must say that it's a school that I can feel close to everyone. (cuz all e faculties are v close together)xD. At first, I brought a very heavy heart to come to this school after I've gotten "scam" but I guess that it might have just been a plan by God. I also didnt know why I was so stubborn in going to this school I'm amaze by he's plan for me and how I get to know people thr and get so connected. Though studying isnt my best and i'm nt doing my best....
I know that there is someone thr to encourage me and others to PUSH ON!
This few months... i was trying and still trying to make a decision to choose where i should finally focus in (commitments)... somewhere I can learn and serve.
This question has always been asked by many... Ever since I entered my church's fellowship...
In nyp crusade, a staff heard about my background, and asked me...(as i recalled)
staff: so how's life?
me: busy...
staff: hmm, how so?
me: well, I've been serving in different fields, bb, ccc, cf, church fellowship (T=4)
staff - relates to a brother, why are you so commited in so many events? youth ministries, adult ministries and young children minstries in church?
e bro replies(frankly).... oh, cuz I feel gd after each sessions...
Ha... it really stuck me, and got me thinking... is my motive in serving right?
I guess to ppl out there who are serving, what are you and me serving for?
many questions on query...
shall stop here for e moment. will get back again :)
time to put my thoughts to pen(blog)
hope I can pen down as much as i can so here it goes....
hurray common test was over with some other presentations and projects!
v. thankful to be able to pull through this times with everyone =)
indeed, had many opportunities to share laughter, joy, sorrow together with many ppl out thr. life has been v pleasant and fruity...
However, as exams are always my greatest fear... I didnt prepared well and enough to be able to pull through my common test which consituets 30%? (I THINK) faint X.X totally flung my papers and it's another storm for me...
sry for some that i lied that i clear my modules...didnt had e courage to tell this news of mine :/ cuz everyone of u have been great~ aiming for A's etc...
Studies has really been a enjoyable but yet stressful experience with many downs and up ups. E past years, I've never gotten to really understand fully what i'm studying and i wasn't discipline enough to fight my laziness. This year, I've come to e point where i can't tahan my study condition. So i tried to fight it... but often I always end up to square one, and even more F's appear in my results -.= which is really just so depressing...
I've always want to study everyday from monday to friday. To read up lecture before, listen attentively, recap after e lecture (on that day itself). Do up tutorials before the class, be ready for practical classes (btw i'm from food science in nyp)
Nv have i really come close to meet all this expectations of mine... and after typing all this i realise how my other commitments in hand really AFFECT greatly my educations... No matter how hard i trust God to lead me through this times... often i find myself being more hectic. Especially, when i have commitments at hand.
Though all this... I'm thankful... and i really hope that this blog... will become my "accountability blog" to remind me what i need to do everyday. I will really appreciate if someone can remind me to blog just lyk how zw >>> commented :)
thanks bro! Sometimes, simple words is enough :)
Philipian 4:6-8
Do not be anxious about everything but everything, by prayer & petition with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts & minds in Jesus Christ.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things
wow, whenever i read this verses(now right smack in front of my study table). It always spoke to me... that no matter what, I must cling strongly beside God. And always when I do, I feel close, I experience he's peace a long one. And how I should always be positive for he will provide the needs of my lost soul.
life in NYP is indeed a wow wow, I'm glad to be in Nyp. It may not be a top poly but I must say that it's a school that I can feel close to everyone. (cuz all e faculties are v close together)xD. At first, I brought a very heavy heart to come to this school after I've gotten "scam" but I guess that it might have just been a plan by God. I also didnt know why I was so stubborn in going to this school I'm amaze by he's plan for me and how I get to know people thr and get so connected. Though studying isnt my best and i'm nt doing my best....
I know that there is someone thr to encourage me and others to PUSH ON!
This few months... i was trying and still trying to make a decision to choose where i should finally focus in (commitments)... somewhere I can learn and serve.
This question has always been asked by many... Ever since I entered my church's fellowship...
In nyp crusade, a staff heard about my background, and asked me...(as i recalled)
staff: so how's life?
me: busy...
staff: hmm, how so?
me: well, I've been serving in different fields, bb, ccc, cf, church fellowship (T=4)
staff - relates to a brother, why are you so commited in so many events? youth ministries, adult ministries and young children minstries in church?
e bro replies(frankly).... oh, cuz I feel gd after each sessions...
Ha... it really stuck me, and got me thinking... is my motive in serving right?
I guess to ppl out there who are serving, what are you and me serving for?
many questions on query...
shall stop here for e moment. will get back again :)
Monday, July 19, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
A simple prayer...
"Dear Lord, thank you for giving me this busy week...
thanks for always being so forgiving and faithful
though some things have change... but your love didnt fade away,
always there waiting at the door. Often there are times where i dun understand
how things work... but Lord you'll never fail to deliever. Lord, I pray that you'll
con't to use me. Also, to make myself receptive to priorities.
The few weeks ahead will be even tougher... pls grant me that wisdom T.T
Many many many stuff have happen... happy sad... just pray that you would con't to
strengthen the weak, and the happy :)
In jesus name i pray~ amen
"Dear Lord, thank you for giving me this busy week...
thanks for always being so forgiving and faithful
though some things have change... but your love didnt fade away,
always there waiting at the door. Often there are times where i dun understand
how things work... but Lord you'll never fail to deliever. Lord, I pray that you'll
con't to use me. Also, to make myself receptive to priorities.
The few weeks ahead will be even tougher... pls grant me that wisdom T.T
Many many many stuff have happen... happy sad... just pray that you would con't to
strengthen the weak, and the happy :)
In jesus name i pray~ amen
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
yeos! i'm back again at last :)
it's been really tough through e 3 weeks that has past...
more stuff to do... more things i see myself lack of... n even more stuff
it's been never ending, and has always been that way...
there were times that i doubt myself... my ability... anything that has got to do with me :/
i even doubt my relationship with God...
Sometimes it just disgust me to think that I need to be spiritual... holy holy~
Just don't see how it relates... why bother even being a christian in the first place...
DOUBT~ it's really a pain in the ass
so what if I'm a person that do God's work... but it seems so surface... love others?
yeah i did.. but it never seems enough and I just couldnt stand a 1 sided love to others or to me...
seriously it sucks... finally understand the feeling of.... when there's the good times, people will be there for you... bad times... people just scram...
must it be that I must say that HEY! i have a problem.... but again... will people hear?
hehe... it must be sucky to be in such a pinch situation but you know what...
Jesus been through it before!
those kind of rejects and the feeling of loneliness... but still he never complained....
today... i would lyk to introduce a friend... a friend that is v dear to me, a pal that never rejects and hear my pain... and he's Jesus... he may seem unreal.... but my experience with him, gave me a confirmation that... he's e real thing man ~ my faith isnt a blind faith, i'm not someone who is brainwash or hyphotise
cause I know he's a God that has came down... died for us... and ressurcted, this IS the reason and core to our christian belief :)
this 3 weeks has been tough indeed... and this are my situation
CF is back in NYP again, i dunno what's gonna come but I can only pray that it will become a group that is strong and bonded, rooted in christ. Hope my service in cf will get me rooted and firm... discipline too ^^
Crusade is getting eggciting, pda com is whr i get to serve... dunno what role i will be but i'm eggcited! SM role.... i really dunno, but i'm still at tots but probably not :/
Boys brigade! currently a primer in charge... haven't been involve in BB for almost a month already... missing a lot of action and interaction wif the boys and volunteers. It's really not easy to multi task... but still I know that this ministry will still go on.... it shape lives and build character
Church involvement... woo, have been quite drain from the involvement in church plus fellowship... preparing for JMZ was draining but i guess it's something worth doing.. keep it up guys! More church stuffs coming up... classes.... and more classes.
Studies... hehe! long last... i've started a bit of revision already :D 5 more weeks till common test! hope i can really make a difference this year and so on. I'll do my best... and i'll prove it :) i'm not e mugger sort... just do my homework early tat's all :) plus recap. yeah~
Social circle... haha! friends... i have many... but to find dear friends... it's not easy... I'm glad and thankful for those who have heard my cries... and sorry for those i've shut myself from... everyone is different, and have different needs... it's really hard to get one's conversation going especially when there's this gap among each other... but how to... close e gap then? still pondering... Friends out there... keep going... may things good or bad.. keep pushing... if it's really putting weight... i'll giv u support... but ultimately.... know your direction well :)
friends... if i've done anything stupid or wrong... forgive me... i too will forgive and forget... so let the matter rest and we'll conquer the future together :)
Family... hoho tmr is mother's day! hope to give my mummy a surprise. shh it's a secret but i'm gonna clean the whole house tmr! rawr. My mom has done all kinds of shit for my family... it's time for me to grow up and start to care for my parents by doing something :)
my uncle from my mum's side has just past away... last sat 1/5... i dunno who is he... but he's a v dear uncle in my mum's eyes... he's lyk her best ge ge ever... though he's a non-christian... but he lives lyk a true man... a man with a pure heart... i didnt even get to see the last of him till now... and i feel really ashame... today he's been rested... i feel so ashamed really and useless... and when i think about what i'm gonna do next... i stumble.... what am i going to do now? i still have many relatives out there i dun even know let alone e gospel... so what if i'm involve in many christian stuff... when my closest doesnt even see it in me that character and attitude...
ashame and useless i am...
Relationship... haiz i really dunno what i am thinking really... it feels lyk i really wanna get a relationship... but when i think about it... i guess it's really the need to have someone close to talk to... and i guess... i wouldnt need a partner for that... but i still stumble... I know... i need to ren... priortise! but i really dunno... i'm lost lyk always... but i guess this is one thing i know... if God wants you to have it... surely u will have it... if he doesnt wan you to have it... surely no matter how hard... it will be wasted... girl... u've started to crack me... but surely... if u'll the one... hehe i'll wait :)
hehe another long blog... wanna keep track of wad i've been doing before i forget so ya tata~ night and God bless!
Friday, April 9, 2010
Today is yet another different day :)
Went back to COGs, brings back memories...
Can't believe i'll be playing the piano for next weeks enrollment
but i guess it's time... have been avoiding being e pianist for some time
and plus~ it's only 1 song~
Pray hard that i'll be at my best tmr!
Wanna giv my best to God :D
Today... a different day a different look~
Had a lot of thinkin to do recently but still in e midst of sorting out
hope i get my breakthough real soon before the sem starts
SOOO many stuff happened but i'm glad i gt my travellers to talk to :)
The journey with God is indeed amazing...
when things doesnt go right...w8... think... from another perspective... pray...
and slowly it reveals
The process is tedious but it'll be fruitful :)
Do my best... and leave the rest to God~
Today's my first time swimming alone...it's scary, weird...
but it was a gd swim as i find peace in him
My emotion is somewhat stable now... much much stable :D
Still wanna con't typing but... i've gtg :( night~
thanks for reading! God bless
Went back to COGs, brings back memories...
Can't believe i'll be playing the piano for next weeks enrollment
but i guess it's time... have been avoiding being e pianist for some time
and plus~ it's only 1 song~
Pray hard that i'll be at my best tmr!
Wanna giv my best to God :D
Today... a different day a different look~
Had a lot of thinkin to do recently but still in e midst of sorting out
hope i get my breakthough real soon before the sem starts
SOOO many stuff happened but i'm glad i gt my travellers to talk to :)
The journey with God is indeed amazing...
when things doesnt go right...w8... think... from another perspective... pray...
and slowly it reveals
The process is tedious but it'll be fruitful :)
Do my best... and leave the rest to God~
Today's my first time swimming alone...it's scary, weird...
but it was a gd swim as i find peace in him
My emotion is somewhat stable now... much much stable :D
Still wanna con't typing but... i've gtg :( night~
thanks for reading! God bless
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
Maybe I should have just waited....
lyk how i waited for an answer from God....
Having a big traffic JAM in my head =.=
Many things are meant to be kept simple,
yet somehow people just twist and turn...
and it becomes a world hardest knot...
想问候但怕尴尬。。。你说。。。正么办？
but people always say.... if there's no hidden motive in your action... why not?
but again.... We're human =.= The only thing i can say is... pray
Something that i've learn and i hope everyone else would put it at practice too :)
God knows everything.... and if u're willing to trust him... he will provide
A pen can never stand tall in an rocky ride...
but with another force around to support it well
And that is how amazing God is
Lol feel more calm le.. now that i've typed it out :D
相信明天会跟好 :)
lyk how i waited for an answer from God....
Having a big traffic JAM in my head =.=
Many things are meant to be kept simple,
yet somehow people just twist and turn...
and it becomes a world hardest knot...
想问候但怕尴尬。。。你说。。。正么办？
but people always say.... if there's no hidden motive in your action... why not?
but again.... We're human =.= The only thing i can say is... pray
Something that i've learn and i hope everyone else would put it at practice too :)
God knows everything.... and if u're willing to trust him... he will provide
A pen can never stand tall in an rocky ride...
but with another force around to support it well
And that is how amazing God is
Lol feel more calm le.. now that i've typed it out :D
相信明天会跟好 :)
Friday, April 2, 2010
hello everybodie~
Looks lyk i broke my own promise xD
not gonna blog abt the book...
gt it returned to the library and couldnt get it back :(
Feels great to type again
This week is sports week!(for me)
Sunday> Bball, running...
Monday> Swimming
Tues> Batminton,pool,wii~
Wed> Swim again...
Thursday> Batminton again...
Friday> Hiking~
Saturday... i dunno...
Sunday> Running!
Wonder if i'll finally gain my balance weight after so many activities...
but they sure are tiring :/
Feels great to be in poly~
But all gd things will go down with something bad :(
Last week was quite "emotional"...
wasnt having the right mood for camp and chalet
but all bad things come wif gd things
met new freshies and got an nyp junior in BBpc at last T.T
was so lonely then...but! all bad thing comes wif something good~~
learned to tone down...
learned to listen....
learned to care but without asking for interest :D
Somethings been alone can be a gd thing too but wif MODERATION....
too lonely and u're become a emo kia = not healthy
too people orientated = lose focus = not healthy :/
but seems lyk i'm both the extreme at times... hop around D:
Recently... I've almost fell i luvvv...
finally gt a little taste of that "feel"...
but I thank God for that book =.=
it has taught me to keep my feeeel aside and wait...
feelings are neither right or wrong BUT the decision after is the problem.
so boys and gals~ whenever u think u've found ur target...
Aim... but dun fire immediately cuz u'll never know wad u're up to until u....
zoom zoom here and thr.... until u're certain... and dun shoot when u're not ready too...
gt a lot of report writing to do wor...
Just using some illustration thr~
Anw... for me... i think i'm just not ready yet :)
Wad's mine is mine so why bother finding xD
Sick of finding and chasing and fake perception...
so.... dun try too hard pls~ wad's ur's ur's
too hard only scare ppl away~ too slack and there goes again~
but rather be slack than hard cuz u're never know.
I love my life~ feel so recharge and focus
BUT! still need to work on the moderation part :)
tata gonna chiil on e bed liao night!
Looks lyk i broke my own promise xD
not gonna blog abt the book...
gt it returned to the library and couldnt get it back :(
Feels great to type again
This week is sports week!(for me)
Sunday> Bball, running...
Monday> Swimming
Tues> Batminton,pool,wii~
Wed> Swim again...
Thursday> Batminton again...
Friday> Hiking~
Saturday... i dunno...
Sunday> Running!
Wonder if i'll finally gain my balance weight after so many activities...
but they sure are tiring :/
Feels great to be in poly~
But all gd things will go down with something bad :(
Last week was quite "emotional"...
wasnt having the right mood for camp and chalet
but all bad things come wif gd things
met new freshies and got an nyp junior in BBpc at last T.T
was so lonely then...but! all bad thing comes wif something good~~
learned to tone down...
learned to listen....
learned to care but without asking for interest :D
Somethings been alone can be a gd thing too but wif MODERATION....
too lonely and u're become a emo kia = not healthy
too people orientated = lose focus = not healthy :/
but seems lyk i'm both the extreme at times... hop around D:
Recently... I've almost fell i luvvv...
finally gt a little taste of that "feel"...
but I thank God for that book =.=
it has taught me to keep my feeeel aside and wait...
feelings are neither right or wrong BUT the decision after is the problem.
so boys and gals~ whenever u think u've found ur target...
Aim... but dun fire immediately cuz u'll never know wad u're up to until u....
zoom zoom here and thr.... until u're certain... and dun shoot when u're not ready too...
gt a lot of report writing to do wor...
Just using some illustration thr~
Anw... for me... i think i'm just not ready yet :)
Wad's mine is mine so why bother finding xD
Sick of finding and chasing and fake perception...
so.... dun try too hard pls~ wad's ur's ur's
too hard only scare ppl away~ too slack and there goes again~
but rather be slack than hard cuz u're never know.
I love my life~ feel so recharge and focus
BUT! still need to work on the moderation part :)
tata gonna chiil on e bed liao night!
Friday, March 26, 2010
gimme another 3 days :) will be back here again...
will be sharing on a book title "Life on the edge"
Some thoughts on this book...
This book aim to reach out to youths lyk me...
who are still slowly shaping into something...
but seems that the society has stained most of us...
and the wrong seems right... and the right seems wrong...
this book teaches and shares about different challenges a youth can expect
in the coming years...
If u're interested... come and pop by this sun :)
will be just covering chap by chap (just some insights i have)
Anw... just gt back from camp and chalet
Gt to clear up my many thoughts in this few days...
so now i'm fresh again! :D
Lvling up slowly....
And soon... i'll have a room of my own
time to be artistic xD
will be sharing on a book title "Life on the edge"
Some thoughts on this book...
This book aim to reach out to youths lyk me...
who are still slowly shaping into something...
but seems that the society has stained most of us...
and the wrong seems right... and the right seems wrong...
this book teaches and shares about different challenges a youth can expect
in the coming years...
If u're interested... come and pop by this sun :)
will be just covering chap by chap (just some insights i have)
Anw... just gt back from camp and chalet
Gt to clear up my many thoughts in this few days...
so now i'm fresh again! :D
Lvling up slowly....
And soon... i'll have a room of my own
time to be artistic xD
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Finally semester 2 is OVER!
It's time for a break...
but seems to be a tiring one for now...
often find myself not please...
nth pleases me... sastify me...
seems that i'm just a super obsessed bull that keeps ramming into walls...
turning back to the starting line and that fact never changes...
For the past 30 mins... i've been struggling to find something to do online...
chat wif someone online? watch some shows online? maybe manga will be gd hmm... facebook?
check my profile(hope something pops up?)
but ended up, i went to hop blogs :)
This past few days, i've been trying hard to learn how to play guitar... but until day 9
that passion suddenly died... but i've learn a bit.... but i know i need to push myself...
wanted to improve my languages... but still didnt had to courage to start...
Found an interesting book from the library about how to oriented oneself....my purpose for studying...that aim... borrowed but seems to have collected dust halfway through...
BB commitments... still unsettled... still uncertain.
church fellowship.... feeling a bit far away... but i'll con't to try...
studies... been a drag... but i pray that somehow God will show me the way...
Family... mom's going for eye checkup today... i pray i pray that nth serious will happen.
Dad on mission trip in thailand... pray for his journey mercy
my little bro... pray that he can more motivated in his studies... so that he won't be lyk me...
little coco... pray that she will not find us too cold to her as we dun have enough time to
keep her company...
everyone has been quite moody for some reasons... pray that God will keep us calm and
and give us the peace we needed most...
pray that i won't be too self-orientated and start caring the one around him...
Nyp campus crusade... found a v heart warming group of christians that are unknowningly so close to me but yet... i still have a doubtful heart...
Pray that i know and learn what God wants me to do soon... I'm really drain...
but often i question myself... am i closing myself away from him? am i just not gd enough?
Sometime ago... when i heard from someone prasing me that i've grown spiritually well... i disgust as i recall... in my mind it goes... are u sure? Sometimes the thought just switches on and off.
My life has been revolving round many things... many things... so much that I dunno what am i revolving at.
I've realise that praying alone won't just do it... preparation for it is also a must do...
The same logic as pooing and eating...( think this is a bad example though..) dun eat... can't poo = not healthy... dun poo... can't eat... = v bad for health.
So likewise... prayer and preparation comes together...
when i was in the library the other day.... i gt this book( which is the one that is collecting dust at home...) said this important phrase that stuck me
" What makes this period ( young adulthood life 16 - 26 ) even more significant is the impact of early mistakes and erros in judgment. They can undermine all that is to follow. A bricklayer knows he must be very carful to get his foundation absolutely straight, any wobble in the bricks at the bottom will create an even greater tilt as the wall goes up. So it is in life."
At that point i finally re-called the non-stop nagging from my parents when i was young...
boy... work hard ... and you will be rewarded greatly...
Likewise in God's kingdom...
yeah work hard.... but work smart...
Often found myself saying yes to everything ppl ask me...
Often found myself having too much friends...( gd or bad idk)
Often found myself tired and alone at the end of the day...
Often foundd myself being less active then others... but at least they know when to rest...
Often found myself having different friends to hang out wif almost every week...
But i know... thr is one friend that never changes... God himself... but still =.= i'm still far away...
If only i can be that somebody that can do things up swiftly and accurate...
Someone that has that NERVE.... to be decisive... and not waver... not too lax... but comfortable...
someone that is dependable on....
If only i can do this stuff... i would definately be... a christ orientated person...
Maybe from this blog on... i will set targets for myself :) as a kind of contract for myself xD
Anw... i'm v comforted to see everyone else doing quite well :) especially my church batch peeps :)
no matter wad dun give up! :)
Fellowship peeps :) Thanks for having me
Crusade... Thanks for ur patience...
Family... Thanks for the support u've give me...
BB... Thanks for everything =.=
Friends... I dunno...
Night guys... sry for e messy post again..
It's time for a break...
but seems to be a tiring one for now...
often find myself not please...
nth pleases me... sastify me...
seems that i'm just a super obsessed bull that keeps ramming into walls...
turning back to the starting line and that fact never changes...
For the past 30 mins... i've been struggling to find something to do online...
chat wif someone online? watch some shows online? maybe manga will be gd hmm... facebook?
check my profile(hope something pops up?)
but ended up, i went to hop blogs :)
This past few days, i've been trying hard to learn how to play guitar... but until day 9
that passion suddenly died... but i've learn a bit.... but i know i need to push myself...
wanted to improve my languages... but still didnt had to courage to start...
Found an interesting book from the library about how to oriented oneself....my purpose for studying...that aim... borrowed but seems to have collected dust halfway through...
BB commitments... still unsettled... still uncertain.
church fellowship.... feeling a bit far away... but i'll con't to try...
studies... been a drag... but i pray that somehow God will show me the way...
Family... mom's going for eye checkup today... i pray i pray that nth serious will happen.
Dad on mission trip in thailand... pray for his journey mercy
my little bro... pray that he can more motivated in his studies... so that he won't be lyk me...
little coco... pray that she will not find us too cold to her as we dun have enough time to
keep her company...
everyone has been quite moody for some reasons... pray that God will keep us calm and
and give us the peace we needed most...
pray that i won't be too self-orientated and start caring the one around him...
Nyp campus crusade... found a v heart warming group of christians that are unknowningly so close to me but yet... i still have a doubtful heart...
Pray that i know and learn what God wants me to do soon... I'm really drain...
but often i question myself... am i closing myself away from him? am i just not gd enough?
Sometime ago... when i heard from someone prasing me that i've grown spiritually well... i disgust as i recall... in my mind it goes... are u sure? Sometimes the thought just switches on and off.
My life has been revolving round many things... many things... so much that I dunno what am i revolving at.
I've realise that praying alone won't just do it... preparation for it is also a must do...
The same logic as pooing and eating...( think this is a bad example though..) dun eat... can't poo = not healthy... dun poo... can't eat... = v bad for health.
So likewise... prayer and preparation comes together...
when i was in the library the other day.... i gt this book( which is the one that is collecting dust at home...) said this important phrase that stuck me
" What makes this period ( young adulthood life 16 - 26 ) even more significant is the impact of early mistakes and erros in judgment. They can undermine all that is to follow. A bricklayer knows he must be very carful to get his foundation absolutely straight, any wobble in the bricks at the bottom will create an even greater tilt as the wall goes up. So it is in life."
At that point i finally re-called the non-stop nagging from my parents when i was young...
boy... work hard ... and you will be rewarded greatly...
Likewise in God's kingdom...
yeah work hard.... but work smart...
Often found myself saying yes to everything ppl ask me...
Often found myself having too much friends...( gd or bad idk)
Often found myself tired and alone at the end of the day...
Often foundd myself being less active then others... but at least they know when to rest...
Often found myself having different friends to hang out wif almost every week...
But i know... thr is one friend that never changes... God himself... but still =.= i'm still far away...
If only i can be that somebody that can do things up swiftly and accurate...
Someone that has that NERVE.... to be decisive... and not waver... not too lax... but comfortable...
someone that is dependable on....
If only i can do this stuff... i would definately be... a christ orientated person...
Maybe from this blog on... i will set targets for myself :) as a kind of contract for myself xD
Anw... i'm v comforted to see everyone else doing quite well :) especially my church batch peeps :)
no matter wad dun give up! :)
Fellowship peeps :) Thanks for having me
Crusade... Thanks for ur patience...
Family... Thanks for the support u've give me...
BB... Thanks for everything =.=
Friends... I dunno...
Night guys... sry for e messy post again..
Sunday, March 7, 2010
yeos. long time since i've typed in this white box...
Currently... i'm quite stable in my juggling of stuff :)
especially when i'm having holiday now!
more time to think about stuff
The previous posts that i uploaded were all small complains...
badmouthing my course...
After this many months of struggle..
i seem to withdraw from the rejection i once had for that course...
Previously i was just so certain so head on in having the course changed...
I tot that i was just a screwed up poly student
My mindset keeps changing... which i realise was my weakness
From sec 4... from choosing pharmacy... to food science... to architecture and to... food science again... and again...
This just showed me how indecisive i am...
I'm utterly ashame of myself.. really...
But... i realise something... that this is He's plan for me...
Whenever i look back at myself... i smile... but when i look at wad's in front of me i shrink away...
this shouldnt be...
haiz.. touch 2 weeks i had since the letter of rejection came into my life =.=
i wasnt really stress on being rejected... it's the decision i have to made next...
(the what's next thingy)
cuz there's 2 option for me... stay on as a food scientist OR appeal to MP
Previously... my stand was... if letter come and it rejects me to change course then i will stay on in my current studies....
but mom say that... should con't to press on to break the door in, find other solutions... the MP thingy is she suggest one also... at first i was quite ok with it, but somehow it just rejects me...
and today's the the i meet the person... i dunno if i should or not... so i still have 18 hrs to think about and pray...
After this few months of falling and climbing...falling and climbing back... it isnt a waste... in my view... cuz i've gain something more valuable... once i know my goal... i'll cling on it for life! hope my vision comes real soon :D wait and pray and i'll make preparation too in the mean time.
Currently this is my core prob... hope once this settle i will be a freeeeeeeeee man :)
to be con't~
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
wooooo...
life was great last year
but this year will be an extra~ ordinary one!
As I started to count the number of things to thank for...
i was shock, today had this wonderful session to appreciate our sms.
It was great to come down as a body to thank them for all their efforts
but let not our effort be the glory :)
I've always been wondering and sometimes even getting frustrated over the things
I've been through and the times i have to make decisions and even to open my mouth...
Sometimes i just blame it on God... sometimes i just shut down.
Everyday seem like just another day... struggling to survive that ever demanding world...
school... social life stastifaction... trend... etc.
Life was never good when i first stepped in my nyp days...
there was much of hope for me there to pursue this course of mine...
but i guess it was already planned beforehand...
as i tried to recall when i was making that decision to choose my course...
I wanted to do this things if i were to get into nyp >>>
Get to know even MORE people...
wan to be someone different from the rest...
wanna step out of my comfort zone...
wanna get into pharm course...
It's true that the sem was a bigg struggle... even till now.
n i was thinking... was i prepared to go tat far?
at tat time i was also eager to test my faith in God by going to that school...
n i wasnt even thinking of graduating from tat school
But after the things i have experience, seen, heard during my sem 1 i n nyp...
God taught me a lot... a lot even till now.
Some parts of me stayed and some parts of me changed.
Through the sem.. God spoke to me through many ways...
n i guess i got it right this time.
He has place many brothers and sisters around me...
n to actually have them sharing their past experience which is so relavent to the me right now.
I guess it was never a coincident but God's plan.
As the days goes by in poly... i start to waver... my believe... my faith... my life
but then again... through those days... those "hardship",
i'm able to pull myself back up n really orient myself.
Grades and involvement in school had always been e root to my frustration...
but now it seems all clear...
that i have to really have faith... n that wadever i do... do my best and I will be rewarded in ways that i can't think of.
Being an nyp student was never a sacrifice... being a person who goes out of comfort zone was neither a sacrifice... It was e least i could do. and that humbled me.
Life is indeed short and fragile, but I really do hope that the little things i do... the things i say will be indeed God's will for us our future and it's still his plan.
His love for us is indeed forever and he is always thr to hear our crys and share our joy.
it's e least we could do.
night everyone God bless :)
life was great last year
but this year will be an extra~ ordinary one!
As I started to count the number of things to thank for...
i was shock, today had this wonderful session to appreciate our sms.
It was great to come down as a body to thank them for all their efforts
but let not our effort be the glory :)
I've always been wondering and sometimes even getting frustrated over the things
I've been through and the times i have to make decisions and even to open my mouth...
Sometimes i just blame it on God... sometimes i just shut down.
Everyday seem like just another day... struggling to survive that ever demanding world...
school... social life stastifaction... trend... etc.
Life was never good when i first stepped in my nyp days...
there was much of hope for me there to pursue this course of mine...
but i guess it was already planned beforehand...
as i tried to recall when i was making that decision to choose my course...
I wanted to do this things if i were to get into nyp >>>
Get to know even MORE people...
wan to be someone different from the rest...
wanna step out of my comfort zone...
wanna get into pharm course...
It's true that the sem was a bigg struggle... even till now.
n i was thinking... was i prepared to go tat far?
at tat time i was also eager to test my faith in God by going to that school...
n i wasnt even thinking of graduating from tat school
But after the things i have experience, seen, heard during my sem 1 i n nyp...
God taught me a lot... a lot even till now.
Some parts of me stayed and some parts of me changed.
Through the sem.. God spoke to me through many ways...
n i guess i got it right this time.
He has place many brothers and sisters around me...
n to actually have them sharing their past experience which is so relavent to the me right now.
I guess it was never a coincident but God's plan.
As the days goes by in poly... i start to waver... my believe... my faith... my life
but then again... through those days... those "hardship",
i'm able to pull myself back up n really orient myself.
Grades and involvement in school had always been e root to my frustration...
but now it seems all clear...
that i have to really have faith... n that wadever i do... do my best and I will be rewarded in ways that i can't think of.
Being an nyp student was never a sacrifice... being a person who goes out of comfort zone was neither a sacrifice... It was e least i could do. and that humbled me.
Life is indeed short and fragile, but I really do hope that the little things i do... the things i say will be indeed God's will for us our future and it's still his plan.
His love for us is indeed forever and he is always thr to hear our crys and share our joy.
it's e least we could do.
night everyone God bless :)
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